First of all, I married a man that is twice my age. No, he doesn't have money, people seem to think that he does, why I have no idea. As a matter of fact, a guy who seemed to have a little crush on me (and was totally denied), told my then soon to be husband he needed a prenup, implying I was a gold digger, huh what an ass. Anyway, my husband is the most amazing guy i've ever met in my entire life. He would give anything to anyone when asked. I actually saw him literally give the shirt off his back to a man one night. He is an extremely old school, hillbillly, Kentuckian, with great values and has made me a better person. I fought falling in love with this 73 year old man but I couldn't help but love him. We married May 30 2009, on what would have been my parents 40th anniversary. I love this man with all of my heart and soul, and I often wonder what I will do should I lose him. That's a real worry at his age, and I knew coming into this marriage that I wouldn't have him long. A year ago he became real sick, had a lengthy hospital stay, but recovered, thankfully. But as the year went on, it seemed he never really completely bounced back to what he was. For a guy at 73, he would get around and do what a 50 year old would do, and never let up, he's a very persistent, independent, go getter. We both had seen that he wasn't what he was, I have never mentioned it, but am always watching, never being gone to long, I just fear what might happen if im not there. So, today he tells me, a couple nights this week I haven't felt all that great and was afraid I may not make it through the night. That completely crushed me, he never woke me, and never said anything about this at all. I asked him why and he said he didn't want me taking him to the hospital, he didn't want to disturb me, I needed my sleep. Then continued to say he felt as though he may not be here long and talked about random things he wants to have done before he goes, and wants to make sure everything is all lined out. If you knew this man, you would know he's not a man that talks about such things, so now im completely scared. I have no idea what the hell im going to do without this man, he is my entire life, I don't even know if I can exist without him, its hard to remember the time when we weren't together. I just don't know, who or what will become of me with out him, we have spent no more than 6 days apart in almost 5 years. There are no words to express how I feel right no and will feel when the inevitable happens.